Sunday, 14 March 2010

  • Scared of Commitment.

    I am scared of commitment. I have to face that.
    Even when it's something as small and casual as just having a boyfriend, I feel like running away.

    Yes, he is my first boyfriend. Everything before him consisted of just small flings & hook ups (never sex though, mostly just making out).
    Even if I liked a guy & he liked me back, I'd find some way to reject him or pull myself away and pretend that distance just came between us. I am only 18, but I am already finding commitment to be a huge issue.

    I've liked this guy for a while now & all the time spent with him leading up to us becoming an item were AMAZING.
    However, just a day into the relationship and I was already looking for a way out. I panic.
    I want space.
    I want time.
    I want the chase.
    But that is horrible.

    Does anybody else feel this way? Or am I just a cold, heartless person?

    (PS: It's our 4th day of the relationship and I am trying to keep contact minimal because when there is space that's when I want him again. I feel bad.)

    Feedback please.

    -Bee

Sunday, 28 February 2010

  • Greetings are in Order

    Hey there, I go by Bee.

    My username comes from Suzanne Collins' trilogy The Hunger Games.
    I cannot wait until the third and final book- Mockingjay- comes out. I will probably cry when I finish it.

    I'm 18.

    I used to have another xanga account which focused on me and my eating disordered thoughts. I don't want this account to have anything to do with that account so I will let it remain anonymous.

    I am a romantic at heart but I am definitely a tough person.

    I was born in U.S.A but I live in Canada. So currently I am watching the gold medal hockey game and I`m about to get a heart attack. Haha.

    Yes, I do understand that I should probably be writing all this stuff in my profile but I figure it won`t make a huge difference.

    I`m a very friendly person.
    And blahblahblah.

    I don`t know if I`ll be using this to talk about my life or just to check out other weblogs and comment there.
    Either way, I`ll be around.
    Add me back cuz I`ll probably be adding you. :)

    Enjoy!

    xoxo
    Bee

Saturday, 27 February 2010

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